This is not meant to be a complaint or a rant or anything, so I'm sorry if it sounds like one, it's meant to just be a suggestion for the future.
I've attempted to enter the AMV contest many times in the past but because of technical issues I've never been able to actually do so. This year I told myself no matter what I'd be in it. I planned and worked very hard on my video, giving plenty of time before the deadline to submit. I felt as though I hadn't worked so hard on a video in my life and I was quite proud of what I'd cooked up.
I submitted it and got the email saying it was received and good luck in the contest.
Now, I know not every submission gets to be in the contest. Some just don't make the cut and are just shown in the after show. But since no one told me if I'd gotten in or not, I assumed I was.
Me and my ten friends went to the AMV contest and shuffled into the pretty packed room. They had no actual interest in being there and we missed a panel they really wanted to see but they wanted to see my video and support me. So we're sitting there watching all the submissions and I was pretty nervous. My video was entered in the Intensity category and I joked mine would be last.
My friends started to get bored around the comedy category but they kept saying how proud and excited they were of me. When we got to the category I was in, one video after another goes by until we get to number 3. They laugh and tell me I was right, mine will be last. But mine wasn't last. It wasn't on the playlist at all.
Instantly they wanted to leave and I just sat there trying not to cry.
Again, this isn't meant as a complaint or a 'mine was the best it should have been in' sorta thing. I just felt like I'd failed my friends and myself. Finally getting the courage to enter and being so proud of it and wasting my friends time for nothing.
The videos that got in this year were great, don't get me wrong, I didn't think mine was AMAZING or winner quality but I thought mine was good enough to at least be in the contest and apparently it wasn't.
As someone with bad anxiety I spent most of the night crying and thinking I'd picked a wrong career choice because while I have a college degree in editing, I'm apparently not good enough to be in a little convention contest. And not to pick on any of the other submissions but I thought mine should have made it in compared to some of the others. If it was a time thing, that's fine but I wish again, someone would have said so.
Long story short, it'd be nice if someone told people if they were actually in the contest or not. I guess you could say the surprise is going and seeing if you were in it at all but to me it was just a disappointment. It was also kind of annoying since I only went to Kumoricon to see my video on the big screen and instead I ended up wasting money I didn't have to buy a badge just to sit around for two hours and hate myself.