You found out my biggest weakness! I am bad at starting anythings, anythings, even chats... I tend to wait for others. And just do what others what to when in a group rather then putting in what I think might be fun. I am getting better at that, but I am still bad at it too.
and it's not really anythin' when my depression hits, it is almost never for a reason, just hits. and turns all good into bad somehow. Yeasterday night I just got very... "I will never be able to get all my cosplay. I can't even get to my weight to get proper measuments for them. I suck... blah blah..." and down with life I suck stuff like that. making me thnk things I don't really feel or want to feel. Depression is an evil monster. but I've been fighting it. And it is showing it's face less and less often now.