At Kumoricon I felt reborn, after it I had a clean slate. The problem with being reborn is that you feel so new all over again. When a drama war opens up you never seem to notice it. And when someone drops from the forums, you couldn't know what to do if they up and left, except be sad that you didn't know anything but their name to change anything.
I like having a fresh start, but feeling so shy and so noob once again, not knowing if I know anyone but a handful of people, is mind pinching.
I guess another delemma is that I have bad luck with my camera, so rather than being able to get in pics at meetups, or post my own default pic, I hide behind this mask of a former cosplay attempt. Maybe someday I can get super saiyan Trunks done. -_- *sigh*