I doubt many of you know me; I was active on these forums a long time ago. I stopped visiting though, because I had a falling out with a number of people on here last year in the Fall. (Section removed per code of conduct)
I've been hurting, and still am. I want to stop hurting, SO MUCH. There's one way I know how, but it wont make me happy; which is what I really want: to be happy again. That wont be happening anytime soon, but I can at least take some solace in the fact that I've done SOMETHING, even though I doubt the people who need to read this ever will.
http://cannonheart.livejournal.com/536.html
For the record, I am a big softy. Despite whatever front I'm putting up (so people don't mess with me), I'm a really nice guy. More importantly, I'm really REALLY shy, I'm not the best in social situations (autism), and I'm hurt fairly easily.
And... I'm lonely, and have been for a while. Try not having a group of close friends to call your own, and try watching everyone else around you having fun. It's one reason why I probably wont be coming back to Kumoricon for a while; I just end up being depressed afterwards. (Section removed per code of conduct.)
Please keep off-forum disputes off-forum, per the code of conduct. ~randompvg
It's funny...and here I thought I was alone in my anguish for social survival. Through my years of being on here, I've seen faces that I'd call friends, and others that I never got the opportunity to talk to enough. I have a slice of autism in me also, and I too am not 100% socially confident. I prefer to use tactful and cunning ways to make my presence known, but sometimes I have brave and bold moments. Yet when I feel passionate about something, I'm like a match at a gas station (as you probably can see in my reply, lol).
Even with my obsessive concern for the safety of others feelings, and the courage to wait and try at the opportune moment, I still have no idea where I fit into the local otaku and convention society, or where to ask to find out.
I see myself as a drifter, not tied to one specific group, but a good friend to everyone. Someone they can trust if they have no one else to turn to. But the life of a drifter is indeed a lonely one. Luckily I found someone last year to call my own and make things a little less lonely.
I know where you're coming from, and my best advice is to tough it out and keep a sharp eye out for an opportunity to shine.
Believe me when I say this to you and anyone else who feels the pain of the lonely road of life...
YOU ARE NOT ALONE!I hate to make this post longer except to avoid double posting but...
We just weren't working... But it really hurts since we have been dating over a year. At least it wasn't too terribly messy and we are able to be friends.. well we will be when we get over the initial pain and stuff..
My best advice for this is that every person you have ever loved and lost is just there to get you ready for the one you are meant to be with. I believed this after going through 3 girlfriends, and then finally ending up with Pai this last year.